Moodless
Really moodless these few days. Feel rather lathegic and reckless to do anything. Sometimes I just feel like throwing all my 'life' away and run to some open space (roof top or empty beach) to just sit there and stare blankly, experience stone-age.
Too much externalities had crowed my mind, hacking into my emotional system messing up all my feelings.
Everyday, I wake up having two thoughts:
*Should I skip school today and go Polyclinic and buy MC?
*Today I shall not be affected by my emotions, I must stay happy and hyper!
I don't want to continue being this way anymore, I don't want to be the anti-social me who I used to be. Neither do I wish my results to be affected by all these.
What can I do now? Sleep?
I lost my mood to study or even reply a simple sms.
Doing all these seems to drain out the energy of me.
