Slashed myself..
Cried until my eyes are sore..
Tried to reason with you..
Tried everything.
Since your heart isn't here anymore then might as well I just let you go.
It can't be forced.
Wish you happy with your new friend.
Gimmie some time, I will recover.
Only these few days I'll be super emo de!
Don't know why after talking to my Kor, I felt more better. Think I've made up my mind. It's Game Over! Good Bye!
I hate you now. Hate your ignorance.
Well, it's just my fault. I'm too busy and stressed up myself during the period where you are most interested in me. Now when I'm free, I tried back, but everything is lost already. I can't force it. There's no happiness in forcing. Good Bye! I'll be strong! Don't wish to talk to you anymore after my last word is said.

~IceCleric~


To Whom I've Hurt Yesterday:

Cried the whole day yesterday. A lot of memories surge pass my mind. I was invaded by thoughts. Making me reflect on my own actions. I'm responsible for my action. I know I'm wrong, but when yesterday I saw your SMS, I just lost control of my emotions. Feeling really down today, yet that stupid James still go kajiao me. Really have no much feeling of talk to anyone except you. Why are the usual typeractive you had fallen silent? I really wants your reply. My heart is feeling empty. I tried acting normal, putting on a facade, it just won't work. To others I may seem to be normal or just maybe a little grumpy. But deep down inside I felt so sorry for myself. When my Mother Tongue O's is over today, I don't care anyone and just get outta my school as soon as possible. Reached home and SMS you. There's no reply. I cried again. Think my pillow is gonna be wet with my tears already. Are you ignoring me? My heart's really pain. When I just think of you with another person. I can't tahan this anymore. I want to take back whatever I said to you yesterday. I'm sorry. Will you forgive me? I don't blame you anymore. I understand why you do that already. I've understand. Please..

I really regretted that I was the one who don't cherish you. You are so nice to me and always tries to make me happy, but sometimes I don't know why that I just blast at you. Because of this I think that's why you do that cause you don't dare to talk to me anymore. I'm really sorry. I promise I'll change. Why do people always treasure what is lost? I remembered the times where you accompany me to go out. You are willing to do anything for me. Why am I so stupid not to cherish you? Now all your message seems cold. It contain no feeling anymore, just a simple reply, short and sweet. Your reply also take ages to come. Have you really lost faith in me? Or are you running away from me? I was even planning to go out with you twice next week but in our situation now, I don't think I can tell you this anymore. I don't think I wanna type anymore. My keyboard and my table is soaked with my tears..

If you know that you will hurt me and the consequences why do you still do it? Are you really happy when you are doing it? Why regret now? If you know earlier why won't you reject? I really hurt deeply by you. More deeply then anyone else. I wondered how you go about doing it. I can't imagine anymore! NO! Stop invading my mind! I can't imagine anymore. I don't know! I don't know! I don't know! Would you still be there for me? I don't want to hate you! Pain..Samuel don't come gimmie pain leas! Haha..this kinda situation I still crack jokes.. My heart is really pain..do I suffer from haemorrage? Is there any medicine to cure this? My keyboard is already soaked with my tears le.. My heart is really pain..pain..pain.. .. .. ..

~IceCleric~











I applaud you for your courage to confess. At least you are truthful.
Now then I know why you are so cold towards me recently. I thought I was at fault. Kenichi even told me not to play around and have faith. I can't imagine it's actually the other way round. I was BETRAYED! Why am I so stupid?
But WHAT'S DONE IS ALREADY DONE, YOU CAN'T TURN BACK TIME!
I finally realize how foolish I've been to trust all your sweet-talk in the beginning. When I turn back and look, I've realized that all those sweet-talk are just lies! LIES! Since you had fun might as well hack care me! I ain't any important to you anymore! I wanna take back my shattered heart. I feel like telling you GAME OVER, but then I don't know why I don't want to say it. Do you really cherish me? Actions speaks louder then words. If you don't then just tell me direct, lets end this game shall we? And please pass back my shattered heart!





Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen (mmm)
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won’t listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screamin out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own, my own


My blog is dead silent..
no time to update!
Well, directly after my O's I'll surely update it!

4/5 people reading this please take note:
Setting up of the 4/5 forum again,after the O's
aim is to get everyone in contact with each other.
the link is only available 1 day after the O's have officially ended
which is 14th Nov.

Gimmie a tag oso if u hv signed up 4 the Nee Ann's Poly Red camp. Hope to see people I know there =)

~IceCleric~





Didn't know that this video YouTube also have.
Enjoy!






I know that you are very li hai.*
I only thought that person was worst then you, however I'm wrong.
I could say that my eyes got stamp!
You know yourself very well who I'm talking about.
Everyday emo,emo..got stress oso dun wan to tell. Who the hell knows what you are thinking abt!? Who the hell knows what you are going through?
The best part is your p.s-ing skills!
Everytime left w/out a single notice!
What are you trying to show?
Ytd u promised me to come for the thing n yet u went back slp! Furthermore u ask ur family to hlp u lie! After that send me a lame lame msg or excuse! Actually we known it long ago le! YA and WH hv confidence tt u gonna come bt then..
Sth I find it v.ironic is tt afternoon u went home earlier then me and yet dun tell me tt u didnt slp!? What crap!? If you don't wish to come then dun come! I wont b like Andrew forcing u 2 come de! ur actions reallie irks me!
I don't wish to say anymore..
totally disappointment in u le





Today happened too much stuffs that I really need to blog about it!-even though I AFB~

School-Library

-Went consultation today. My aunt drive me to school so reached about 7.30am. PBL studio is closed so I went to library to continue my studies.
-Alvin don't know that the Physics extra lessons had been changed to a later timing in the afternoon (12pm) so he came early.(No one told him about it, even though the message had been circulated around) He ended up coming to library to join me to study.
-Studied awhile, then Samuel came and join to.
-They started talking about God and Christianity eventually lead to Black Bible (psst..FYI its a Hentai show!) I was miserably dragged into the conversation, but then I do have fun in the conservation.
-P.Vinodth and Deepak joined in awhile later..and the subject of the conversation totally changed to PORN! Cannot take it anymore, cos they talk more extreme de stuffs! In the beginning the conversation was mild, I still can take it de lors.

-They started to give themselves funny funny names:

.Samuel-Pain/Reaper, kills the prisoners

.Alvin-Verdict, gives the judgment of death!

.Deepak-Torturer, torture the prisoners before they are handed to the reaper/pain

.P.Vinodth-erm..forgotten liaoz

Then in the end I also got one, HOLY MAN! Plea for leniency,but unknowingly making it worst only for the prisoner.

School-Panel Room

-Left the Library and went for the Additional Mathematics Relative Velocity extra lessons which is from 10am to 12pm.
-After the lesson I finally got a better view of that topic.
-Went to find Mr Ching Ri Chard to get some extra Additional Mathematics papers from other schools.
-After finding Mr Ching, went up to PBL studio to wait for Mr Alvin Lau's Extra Physics lessons. Waited for very long and he didn't turn up, hence I gave Alvin his number and ask him to call Mr Lau. In the end we found out that he was outside eating or having meeting, so we requested that the lesson be postponed to a later date-16/10/07 tues 8.30am.
-After that don't really feel like going home or study, so hang out with some or our class students. They said they wanted to go Jurong Point to eat their lunch, I just follow suit.

Jurong Point








-They discussed and debated-Subway, Moss Burger, Billy Bombers-, finally arrived to a decision-go eat Billy Bombers. (located at 2nd floor beside Anderson's Ice-Cream) Seemun left cos she got something on.
-WAH! Dam expensive for a single ala crate lors! Plus there's also 17% tax!
-On top of that I only got $2! Die liaoz lahs!
-However Alvin so nice guy! He say he help me pay first. (well need to pay him back de lahs, there's no free lunch in this world mahs! ><)
-Here's what they ordered:

Sally and Doris
Lost World
$14++






Alvin
Yin & Yang
$16++






Samuel
Fish and Chips Set Meal
$18++










IceCleric
Grill Chicken
$13.60++





-So next Tuesday me gonna pay back Alvin $11.60 T__T heart pain sia..
-We then studied awhile...until there's no more customers in the restaurant liaoz then we finally called for the bill. Everyone fork out their money. Then there isn't enough. Mr good guy Samuel said that he would help pay the reminding sum by NETS! Heng ar! Don't need to wash the plates ><
-Eating one meal can make you go pok gai(bankrupt) de sia!