Finger Buddha is revived once again!
Today he summoned rain where it seems impossible (when its bright and sunny)
The rain did came...but it was delayed, it only come when our road run have just finish.
Well, I can't deny the fact that during our run, there was a big threat to have a thunderstorm and it was very windy too.
Too bad that IceCleric didn't bring his mobile phone along during the run, if not he will surely show you how nice the sky looks during our run. The way the clouds are in the sky are just breathtaking. It's so mystical. Looks like some magical game.
The dark clouds overshadow the bright afternoon sun. Rays of the sun managed to pierce through the the black clouds which seems like the rays of God from heaven. After further running along the route, the clouds of the sky form a liner line which seems like the stairway to heaven. Maybe, the way I'm describing now its hard for you to visualize but I want to say that its really wonderful, you have to be there to look at it yourself to believe it!

Ohh..here's the video my post title promised, do take some time to see it. It's recommended by IceCleric =]

Funniest!




~IceCleric~





Today is my first Tennis training!
Although, I've no experience but I still squeeze in, I don't care.
Well, the teacher in-charge did questioned me.
He said that he want people who are experienced so that they can play for the school team.
I'll show him that I can train myself up to match the standard of my friend, Yi Chong, who is one of the pro in the team!
The coach was so good lor! Cos he going to Jurong area, so he offered those Jurong newbie in the team a ride home. Anyway, he isn't handsome, just a old man.

Haha..my arm hurts now. Aching. >< align="center">

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||| 40% Stability |||||||||| 33% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63% Accommodation |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical |||||||||||||| 56% Artistic |||||||||||| 43% Religious |||||||||||||||||| 76% Hedonism |||||||||| 36% Materialism |||||||||||| 50% Narcissism |||||| 23% Adventurousness |||||| 30% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||||||||||| 56% Conflict seeking || 10% Need to dominate |||||||||| 36% Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70% Wealth |||||||||| 36% Dependency |||||||||||| 50% Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63% Individuality |||||||||||||| 56% Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Physical security |||||||||||||||| 63% Physical Fitness |||| 17% Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70% Vanity |||||||||||||||| 70% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Indie |||||||||| 33%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
depressed, introverted, neat, needs things to be extremely clean, observer, perfectionist, not self revealing, does not make friends easily, suspicious, irritable, hates large parties, follows the rules, worrying, does not like to stand out, fragile, phobic, submissive, dislikes leadership, cautious, takes precautions, focuses on hidden motives, good at saving money, solitary, familiar with the dark side of life, hard working, emotionally sensitive, prudent, altruistic, heart over mind, unadventurous

~IceCleric~





Arghh!!!!
My mind is empty!
can't think of anything to write for my PI!
Was suppose to hand in the PI last Friday but I've dragged till now!
Die le lahs!
sob sob!
God, help me!

"Journey"

This project task encourages you to consider how a journey undertaken by a person or group of people has been significant (e.g. though life, travel, expedition, science, etc)

• Identify a journey and show how it has had a significant impact on a particular aspect of life of the person or people who have undertaken it.

• Draw up a plan for a journey that could be undertaken by people of your age showing how an experience of this kind could be put to good use in the wider community.

"Modernisation"

This project task encourages you to look at the impact of modernisation on communities (e.g. economic, environment, cultural, employment, etc)

• Identify a positive or negative impact of modernisation on society and show how this has had a significant impact on a specific sector of the community.

• Suggest how this impact could be either extended or prevented in the management of future development of this type.

~IceCleric~


I may appear to people around me that I'm fine.
Still alive, cheering, smiling, joking etc.
Some even told me that I look happier now.
However there's something that they do not know.
Deep down inside me hides the real me, the exterior was just a facade.
I don't want people to worry about me.
Even though I said that I've gotten over with it but on the inside, I just can't let it go like this.

How weak am I on the inside, yet I tried my best to appear strong on the outside.
Such a fool of me to even give my 'life' away.
Deep down inside me, I'm drowned by my own pool of sorrows.
I screaming for attention.
Nothing was moved by my silent scream.
No one has even heard it.
No one even know what I'm feeling.

I hate to be in this kind of situation.

Every time when I shut my eyes, even for awhile, images and memories seems to bypass my mind.
Somewhat somehow, I just don't feel like it.
I'm frustrated that things go this way.
Is this planned to be like that or is this what some other people call it fate?


~IceCleric~





Wah, if I can foresee the future, then I should have reported sick to my PE teacher. Today during the road run, don't know some how some what, sprained my leg. The pain is at the heel and ankle area. The teacher even ask me to continue running, say I putting on an act. Arghh..pain lei, how to run? Now, I'm limping around in my house.
Since when Angel of Death has become the Angel of Luck?












As I was going through and deleting those sweet messages you have sent me in the past, I got a sudden flash of all the times I've spend together with you. I realized that all the past times I've spend with you are all sweet. Even the first outing with you. I really regretted that I posted such things then. Why are humans always like this? Only know how to treasure things/people when it's taken away.

I remembered that the second time when I met you was during my class chalet. I don't cared about the chalet and ran to Pasir Ris beach to spend the night with you talking. That time you are so troubled with another guy and I'm glad that I lend you my ear. That time, I had almost given up on you, cause I know that I don't stand a chance. That night when I went home, I'm smiling in my heart.

Next is my overnight stay at your home. We went walking around Pasir Ris beach and only reached your house very late at night. Where most of your family members had already slept. I still remember that your leg have blisters that time and you are trying your best to clip burst them. I forget to bring my toothbrush and you took a new one for me. I don't know why, but I treasured that toothbrush. Then the most stupid thing is that we two squeeze into you single bed. I know I'm big sized that made you sleepless that night. I'm utterly sorry about that. The next day, you look awfully tired and you still accompany me back to Boon Lay and was late for some important dinner.

You surprised me when you told me that you are coming down to Boon Lay to find me. That time I was touched. Cause I know that you are tired and you still made your trip down to meet me.

Chinese New Year you came my house. The sweet times you spend with me in my room chatting, I can't forget that.

Our outing was always at the city area or Pasir Ris park. We never failed to walk more than 100km per outing. Plus time always flies when I'm with you. Boring time will be gone in a flash.

Then is Valentine's day. You surprised me with the ring and even treated me Ajisan. However, I'm just too greedy. I don't think the time we spent together was enough for that day and I stayed for so long that I missed the last train home. I was worried sick. Cause I told my parents a lie that I went to movie with my best friends. I can't possibly tell them in the last minute that I'll be staying over at my friend's house, cause they will suspect; I will die pathetically if I do that. In then end I called my aunt for help and she drove me home. However, I had forgotten to tell her not to tell that I wasn't with my best friends, hence my mother still gotta find out.

In fact, I just find you cute, being yourself. There's no need for you to change your ways. When you are dramatic, you never fail to put a smile across my face. Being together with you I felt joy and bliss. The little actions you do are cute too.

Then the verdict day came. Where I rush down to meet you after my remedial lessons, two days ago, Friday. I hate people beating around the bush. You don't you tell me straight that you wanted to end it off? You made me lost all my mood that day. I wanted to leave directly after lunch but I don't know why I don't have the guts to do so. I don't know if you cared, but if you do, then breaking off isn't the best idea. I know you are stressed with all the things happening in your life and I'm only adding stress to you. I'm sorry for being another burden to you. Now, that it had all ended, I think that you won't be that stressed anymore.

I want to tell you that, if you mind think that it won't last, then the situation will go this way too. Somehow or somewhat, the relationship won't last. Stop thinking that you aren't good. Different people can give different things, as long as you have take the effort to give in what you can, you are doing your best already. I know some greed of me that you can't satisfy, but I'm just happy being around your side. Now, I've taken the ring off my fingers, it contains no meaning anymore.
I've made a stupid decision that is to wait for you, till you are ready once again. Cause, you are the one I loved the most. I want to love you till there's no tomorrow. I don't know if you are willing to give me another chance.

~IceCleric~





Sorry people, IceCleric did it again. I hope the wound will heal on Monday, so I don't need to explain anything. Haha..my master piece this time looks like a scratch from a big cat with a big paw.
Eh don't think alot of people will understand this post bah? Only some will.

~IceCleric~





I have caused it upon myself. The word I did not wish to hear had finally been spoken. Even though the word had had not been clearly spoken, but I know from the start what you mean. I just don't wish to know the truth so early, hence I acted blur.

Pastor Sy Rogers once said

"what you said you may not have then chance of taking it back."

I regretted posting those stuffs on my blog. I don't think that you will ever forgive me of what I posted here; what I wrote is just what I feel on the spot that time. No hard feelings. If you felt that I exaggerated it, then I have no say. I'm sorry to make you feel sad and depressed. The decision lies in you. I just want to accompany you together with your last walk.

No offense this time. I wasn't implying anything here in this post.
Outch, my heart hurt.

~IceCleric~





Caution: This post is gonna be very long. If you are interested in my trip to Ipoh, then read on. Hope you don't doze off half way reading. Oh, and if the picture is too small, you can click on them to enlarge them. =^^=

-Day One-
Everything was so fast. Before I know it, I'm in the coach, which is parking outside Golden Mill complex. My destination this time is Ipoh (Malaysia) , Kampong Bali, Xiong's hometown. I closed my eyes as the coach leaves the car park...

When I've reached the second custom, in Malaysia, the officer take a very long time inspecting my passport as if there's something wrong with it. Then she told me that now the new system don't need to use white card anymore and she "confiscated" my card. Well, I was the last to go back up the coach, because of her.

When we passed by KL, there's alot of posters of different parties sticked up the walls and hung around the place. Well, its election time and the way they publicize is like so crazy. Worst then Singapore during General Election.

After hours of traveling, we've reached Ipoh and it's almost day break. When I gaze up upon the sky, I saw stars, so much that I seems that the night sky was studded with diamonds. It was an awesome sight that I can't get to see in Singapore! After some hours the darkness of the night faded away as the sun starts to rise. The combination of the colours of the sky was beyond description, it's just so wonderful! I tried to snap some of it but I can't as the ride was bumpy. Before we knew it, we've arrived at Kampong Bali and it's breakfast time for the people there. I can hear roosters proclaiming dawn.




After some walking, we finally reached Xiong's relative's house. It's and has a one story bungalowsix bedrooms. The room were we are going to stay was covered with dust as if no one had ever used that room before. I tidy up the room a little, although not much of a difference, and rest of us went to bed.

Siang and I were awoken by Xiong around 9am plus, saying that his ah gong (grandfather) wants to bring us to have breakfast. I performed my skill, finger offensive, on Siang as he couldn't wake up. =.= He's really a sleepy head.

Xiong's ah gong drives a very old car and at a very low speed. He brought us some roasted pork and bring us to eat wan ton mee. The style of noodles they cooked is different from Singapore's. Plus, the noodles was very delicious. We ordered a pot of tea for drinks.

We went back to the bungalow and interact with Xiong's two female cousins, Ah Yan and Ah Qing. Spending the whole afternoon in the room with air-con turned on, chit chatting and hardcore gaming PSP. Plus that Ah Yan, was so irritating, keep disturbing us. That was my first impression. After some time, we decided go out and have a walk around the village. Saw some bats caught in a net. Utterly a gross sight. We ended up sitting in a zhi cha shop having our lunch. After which we went to Ah Yan's house to rest and rot. Don't know why, after some time, all fell asleep. Actually, we wanted to play some badminton when the sun isn't that blazing hot, but when we all woke up that time, it's already 5pm plus. The three of us then decided to go back to the bungalow without informing Ah Yan.


We went back to shower. I there as, it's kinda dirty. I dislike dirty toilet. Then we feel super uneasy using the toilets and the shower roomheaded towards Xiong's ah gong coffee shop for dinner. Well, the dinner was not bad tho. After dinner we decided to go explore that hunted farm; however after we reached the start of the path which leads to the farm, it felt so eerie that we back out and run back to the bungalow. We rested awhile, played with Xiong's little cousin. After which, we go out to town with Ah Qing and her parents. We went to buy my return tickets first an found out that there are no tickets for Monday night. I suddenly felt the panic and almost become like Siang. I have a Chemistry test on Tuesday morning. It seems that I have left with no choice, then we brought tickets for Tuesday afternoon. Which will arrive at Singapore at night.

Then Ah Qing's parents drove us to eat the famous bean sprout chicken. It's one of the many delicacies in Ipoh. The noodles was very delicious and the bean sprout plus the chicken too! The only thing is that it's too oily. After our supper, we went to the near by night market (pasar malam) to walk walk. Only to realize that the pasar malam is opened by Malays. No offence, Ah Qing's parents ask as to leave saying that they will bring us to a Chinese pasar malam the next day. Well, we brought a little stuffs from the market and some local food which is called 土产 in Chinese.

We spend our first night at Ah Qing's house, in Ah Qing's room as she moved out to the guest room. Brr..the air-con was dam freezing that night plus that Siang keep squeezing me towards the wall in the night, making me hard to sleep. Well, he told me when I just lie down, I fall asleep already and started making "melodies". As for Xiong, he slept at the upper deck.
-End of Day One-

To be continued..





Ask me if I'm happy
I will tell you NO.

Ask me to smile
Then you shall see a frown.

If you ask me why am I like that
You shall get a glare.

*Invisible*
Highlight to read the below portion.

I'm really tired. I can't understand at all. Messaging only takes you a few seconds to do it. Just a simple one will do. I wondered do you still think of me. Its almost 3weeks since I last felt you. I want you and need you badly, do you know?
Honeymoon even ended early without doing something special. Maybe that I'm greedy, I just felt that it isn't enough. What you did with him was even more romantic. You told me that once your exams are over, things will go back to what it used to be. Should I trust you? I don't know. Will you treat me dearly again? Will you treasure me or am I just a toy. I really valued this relationship alot. I tried my best to be as understanding as possible, giving you breathing space too. I just felt that we aren't progressing anywhere. Can you do something to stop my heart from aching.

~IceCleric~


Yesterday went to watch Meet The Spartans with my friend, Lyon. Well, all I have to say is the it's not worth the money cos its totally a lame spoof show. After that went to eat Pasta Mania. Wow! My first time eating there. Was so excited that I only took the photo of my appetizer and forgot to take photo of my main course. Well, the food is not bad though, but not enough to make me feel really full. Think next time I should up size the pasta!

Haiz..Today I'm leaving Singapore with my two best friends to Ipoh. Really felt so sad. How I wish you could care a little more, send me a good bye message before I leave even if you can't send me off. Well, I'm leaving today at 9pm. Venue of departure will be at Golden Mill Complex, some where near Lavender MRT station there. I will reach Singapore on Tuesday morning and I have to rush for my chemistry test. March holiday don't really seems like a holiday to me. Well, think I will buy something from Ipoh back for my friends bah. See how then.

OH!
AND DON'T MISS ME!
LoLz..

~IceCleric~





Today IceCleric decided to go Singlish!

Wah I tell u ar, JC life dam stressful sia, dam fast the time pass by oso!
One week alrdy pass w/out n left me there dazed.
tell u ar, my bio tc hor giv the notes dam brief de sia, n alot of short form oso. hard 2 understand lor. plus during her lect we lyk keep copying wad she draw on her tablet pc lor. sometimes she reallie go too fast le, mayb gonna buy a video cam n record the whole lect down one day!
aiyah, i dam scared of being a Pegasuses lahs, cos i still in holiday mood summore u noe.
then hor this sat nite i still nid 2 go ipoh wif my fens..tues morning then back in sg.
its lyk dam bz 4 me lahs. alot of activities nia!
how i wish i got some breathing space n i oso wanna spend time wif u lors, so long didnt see u liaoz..miss u lyk hell nia!

Haha, hope those reading my this post can understand as much as possible.





Sorry!
I can't act cute and I ain't cute anyway.
All I could is to be emotional.
And to be forewarned that I'm a strange person.
Try to understand me if you can, but I tell you it's hard!
I ain't as cute and innocent as you think I'm.

Girls are good in doing that.
It makes me puke when I see guys act cute when they aren't even cute at all. ESPECIALLY SLKM (Shawn Lam Kiang Ming) from my former Secondary School

Like it or not, take it or leave it but I ain't gonna act cute just to make you happy!
Don't even think that you will come my blog and read this post.

~IceCleric~





Think that recently I'm just getting more paranoid, easily agitated. Maybe I think too much already.

I suddenly felt like I'm a dog. I do something in turn get praised, making me feel happy.
Aren't it the same as a dog? When the owner ask it to do something and the dog performs it well, the owner will praise (giving treats) his dog; in turn the dog will feel happy getting praised too. The owner praise his do is out of happiness that his dog had listen to him and not other things.
Why am I always the one who initiated the sms? My morning greeting, naggy reminders and even good night greetings. If, I don't initiated it, will you message me first instead? I felt like I'm really losing you already. So close but yet so far. Bleeding Bleeding Blood. Greed is the root of all evil, not money. I'm starting to doubt that do you still have any feelings left. I really don't wish to end up like him.

~IceCleric~