I had so many feelings inside, so many troubles that I don't even know how to handle well. I HATED myself.
31st July coming soon, and it is the birthday of someone who I trusted and in the end is also the one who left a deep scar in my heart, I am so run-down now. I'm still deciding if to send him an message on that day or not. Would I once again got hurt?
Am I really that bad, that no one likes me, that no one wants to be friends with me?
What's wrong? Tell me!? I know, there are sure many bad things you want to say about me. Cos you can't really find my good points. Or you could also say there aren't any..
I hate you Jed for coming into my life!
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HurT...






So sian..
As my previous post, had said, I'm feeling super emotional. I came to realize that how rotten a person I'm. I look so ugly- fat and cos of my eyes, I ain't sociable, I just talk what ever I want to and hack care who they are, ain't any joker type, SELFISH, fuzzy, etc..
I just felt that I sucks to the core!
Don't know is this a start of my depression? Better hope not.

I may appear happy and idiotic on the outside, but the real me inside is just crying.


Today, due to some misunderstanding, I threw my shoes at him. The whole class was stunned even my Physics teacher, Mr Alvin Lau. I was called to one side by Mr Lau and along with the other guy who I throw my shoes at. He got fucked up and slam the chair on the floor. This made Mr Lau lost his temper..scoldings..then we had to meet him after school to settle.

I'm trying my very best to tolerate, however I just reached my limit, and flare my anger. It was actually a trigger waiting to be pulled. Sigh..and the person who pull the trigger wasn't him but his friend who seat beside him. I felt really guilty after that. Apologized to those people involved in this. My heart seems heavier then before, I just lost my temper and became a "incredible hulk"! My good friend Gavin was seating beside me, stunned, very long didn't see me become like this already. When I am in sec 3, I had tried my very best to change my personality already, but now it seems to failed.

I just really hate who I really am. Why?





25/07/2007
supposed to be my birthday celebration party.
Through out the lessons, I just can't wait. I'm so excited. Today we are going for ice-skating.
Finally the bell that signals the end of the lesson rung. We gather together. Well, the girls all PANG SEH us. Say wanna come, but then in the end all drop out. What the hell lors! =.=

When we reached there, to my horror, students in uniform aren't allowed to skate. O.o
Then we met this guy called Kelvin. He tried to help us (by borrowing as many jerseys as possible from his friends) however to no avail. (because there aren't enough) I predict that Kelvin is a skater inside, because he seems to know many people inside.
F.Y.I we went Jurong Entertainment directly after school, so we are in our school uniform.

Then wen went to watch movie "Invisible Target" (highlight to see)
wah lau racist lah!
Show is quite nice, not bad. Somewhat seems like New Police Story.
After the movie, I separated myself from the gang of friends as I'm taking bus instead of MRT-with them, and headed home. On my way back, I saw to students (male) holding hands (and swinging) walked past me. I was kind of stunned though..


anyway, just feeling kind of emotional today. Sigh, can't tell you the reason why.






Happie Birthdae To Rion! ^^

I had kinda diff birthdae tis yr,kinda special this yr,dunno y..
anyway i've received alot of present tis yr..
sorrie cant upload my present photos nw,nxt time then giv u see bahs!

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Happy Birthday.....Wish u All The Best n Smile always...





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Let me start off asking you a question :
This brand of potato chips is having this "promotion" where there would be a free cute screen cleaner in every packet of potato chips you buy with the advertisement label on the potato chip bag.Now,tell me what is the probability of you opening a bag of potato chips (with the advertisement label) and found there isn't any "free" cute screen cleaner inside?
Very rare right?And yet i am the one who got this!How down on luck i am!

Well,if you are wondering,that packet of potato chips i was talking about is the brand "Jack n Jill".Remember sometime ( not long) ago there was this advertisement on the television advertising about this?Yup,it was that potato chips!

Well,it all started with my friend,Xiao Mei.She kind of like those cute cute little things,so she started buy the chips.Well,she brought the chips because she wanted the cute little thingy and not the chips.She had collected quite a handful of them now,about 8,i think.Seeing her collecting so much,i kind of like wanted to get one myself also.Thus today during the lunch break in our study guild,we went to Shop and Save to buy some.Xiao Mei brought two and i brough one.When i opened my packet that time,i ruffled and search the whole bag for the thingy,but then saw nothing but potato chips!What the hell lors!What is the probability!?Why am i the unlucky one?If it is so accurate,then i should already strike lottery le!Then the James there keep on laughing at me.Kinda like wanna slap him sia.=.=

Kind of still feeling a bit angry now,cos i ate a whole packet of potato chips for nothing!Surely gonna gain weight le lors! T_T





YaY!
I went to Malaysia (Johore) today and brought a lot of stuffs!
Well,today my mother brought me there to shop for presents for my birthday which is on 24/07.
Was aiming actually to make my mother to buy me a PSP de,bt then failed..
haha
too expensive le bah
so in the end i jus go shop for clothes
and WTF lors,my mother brought her a i-pod shuffle...it isnt her birthday yet lors..
kinda felt jealous =X

anyway here r some picts of my shopping stuffs:
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