As I was going through and deleting those sweet messages you have sent me in the past, I got a sudden flash of all the times I've spend together with you. I realized that all the past times I've spend with you are all sweet. Even the first outing with you. I really regretted that I posted such things then. Why are humans always like this? Only know how to treasure things/people when it's taken away.

I remembered that the second time when I met you was during my class chalet. I don't cared about the chalet and ran to Pasir Ris beach to spend the night with you talking. That time you are so troubled with another guy and I'm glad that I lend you my ear. That time, I had almost given up on you, cause I know that I don't stand a chance. That night when I went home, I'm smiling in my heart.

Next is my overnight stay at your home. We went walking around Pasir Ris beach and only reached your house very late at night. Where most of your family members had already slept. I still remember that your leg have blisters that time and you are trying your best to clip burst them. I forget to bring my toothbrush and you took a new one for me. I don't know why, but I treasured that toothbrush. Then the most stupid thing is that we two squeeze into you single bed. I know I'm big sized that made you sleepless that night. I'm utterly sorry about that. The next day, you look awfully tired and you still accompany me back to Boon Lay and was late for some important dinner.

You surprised me when you told me that you are coming down to Boon Lay to find me. That time I was touched. Cause I know that you are tired and you still made your trip down to meet me.

Chinese New Year you came my house. The sweet times you spend with me in my room chatting, I can't forget that.

Our outing was always at the city area or Pasir Ris park. We never failed to walk more than 100km per outing. Plus time always flies when I'm with you. Boring time will be gone in a flash.

Then is Valentine's day. You surprised me with the ring and even treated me Ajisan. However, I'm just too greedy. I don't think the time we spent together was enough for that day and I stayed for so long that I missed the last train home. I was worried sick. Cause I told my parents a lie that I went to movie with my best friends. I can't possibly tell them in the last minute that I'll be staying over at my friend's house, cause they will suspect; I will die pathetically if I do that. In then end I called my aunt for help and she drove me home. However, I had forgotten to tell her not to tell that I wasn't with my best friends, hence my mother still gotta find out.

In fact, I just find you cute, being yourself. There's no need for you to change your ways. When you are dramatic, you never fail to put a smile across my face. Being together with you I felt joy and bliss. The little actions you do are cute too.

Then the verdict day came. Where I rush down to meet you after my remedial lessons, two days ago, Friday. I hate people beating around the bush. You don't you tell me straight that you wanted to end it off? You made me lost all my mood that day. I wanted to leave directly after lunch but I don't know why I don't have the guts to do so. I don't know if you cared, but if you do, then breaking off isn't the best idea. I know you are stressed with all the things happening in your life and I'm only adding stress to you. I'm sorry for being another burden to you. Now, that it had all ended, I think that you won't be that stressed anymore.

I want to tell you that, if you mind think that it won't last, then the situation will go this way too. Somehow or somewhat, the relationship won't last. Stop thinking that you aren't good. Different people can give different things, as long as you have take the effort to give in what you can, you are doing your best already. I know some greed of me that you can't satisfy, but I'm just happy being around your side. Now, I've taken the ring off my fingers, it contains no meaning anymore.
I've made a stupid decision that is to wait for you, till you are ready once again. Cause, you are the one I loved the most. I want to love you till there's no tomorrow. I don't know if you are willing to give me another chance.

~IceCleric~