To Whom I've Hurt Yesterday:

Cried the whole day yesterday. A lot of memories surge pass my mind. I was invaded by thoughts. Making me reflect on my own actions. I'm responsible for my action. I know I'm wrong, but when yesterday I saw your SMS, I just lost control of my emotions. Feeling really down today, yet that stupid James still go kajiao me. Really have no much feeling of talk to anyone except you. Why are the usual typeractive you had fallen silent? I really wants your reply. My heart is feeling empty. I tried acting normal, putting on a facade, it just won't work. To others I may seem to be normal or just maybe a little grumpy. But deep down inside I felt so sorry for myself. When my Mother Tongue O's is over today, I don't care anyone and just get outta my school as soon as possible. Reached home and SMS you. There's no reply. I cried again. Think my pillow is gonna be wet with my tears already. Are you ignoring me? My heart's really pain. When I just think of you with another person. I can't tahan this anymore. I want to take back whatever I said to you yesterday. I'm sorry. Will you forgive me? I don't blame you anymore. I understand why you do that already. I've understand. Please..

I really regretted that I was the one who don't cherish you. You are so nice to me and always tries to make me happy, but sometimes I don't know why that I just blast at you. Because of this I think that's why you do that cause you don't dare to talk to me anymore. I'm really sorry. I promise I'll change. Why do people always treasure what is lost? I remembered the times where you accompany me to go out. You are willing to do anything for me. Why am I so stupid not to cherish you? Now all your message seems cold. It contain no feeling anymore, just a simple reply, short and sweet. Your reply also take ages to come. Have you really lost faith in me? Or are you running away from me? I was even planning to go out with you twice next week but in our situation now, I don't think I can tell you this anymore. I don't think I wanna type anymore. My keyboard and my table is soaked with my tears..

If you know that you will hurt me and the consequences why do you still do it? Are you really happy when you are doing it? Why regret now? If you know earlier why won't you reject? I really hurt deeply by you. More deeply then anyone else. I wondered how you go about doing it. I can't imagine anymore! NO! Stop invading my mind! I can't imagine anymore. I don't know! I don't know! I don't know! Would you still be there for me? I don't want to hate you! Pain..Samuel don't come gimmie pain leas! Haha..this kinda situation I still crack jokes.. My heart is really pain..do I suffer from haemorrage? Is there any medicine to cure this? My keyboard is already soaked with my tears le.. My heart is really pain..pain..pain.. .. .. ..

~IceCleric~